Feel a little bit upset with some persons who always value everything by money, especially in valuing my help or assistance. Well, it’s not a little bit. I am -berry upset. It feels like all your help means nothing when you receive the money. I found lots of them around me. And you know, for some situation I found my self try to avoid some arguing by receiving the money. Do you know that I never keep the money? I aways distribute it to other who I think deserve to receive it, who did the job harder than me. I guess it’s the time start to show my objection and start the arguing. They ruin all my kindness by doing that!

What they don’t know that I assist them because I admire them and I value them more than money. I do realize that they do it because the appreciate my help and they want to motivate me. It’s just, I don’t feel it right. I have my own salary. That’s one of my job desk I guess. Team work. And eventhough I’m not in the same team with them, I will still help them. That’s what friends are for. I appreciate “a-true-thanks” rather than their money. I appreciate their time to create a simple-thanks-card or find a cheap gift rather than their money.

I wrote this just to remind my self, to keep this idealism, in case I start to feel that I deserve to receive that gratitute. Am I doing this right? What would you do if you were me?